"Pandora's Box" by Wickana Laksmi Dewi
For some reason, the last two weeks of February seems to be packed with art exhibitions all across the city. It's making me feel both excited and dizzy, unable to choose which ones to look at first. I could probably just make a round, but, if you know Jakarta at all, you know it won't be easy. Not exactly by choice, last Saturday I decided to visit the Broken Heart Gallery exhibition—which is a super small installation at Plaza Indonesia—with my partner-in-crime of a sister. There were some interesting works—two of which from artists that I've heard of (and even interviewed) before. Although I didn't enjoy the exhibition very much—except for the fact that it served as a setting for an outfit shooting rather well—it made me think of heartbreaks. There are just so many shapes and sizes of heartbreaks, though it's a shame that the exhibition only highlighted the romantic kind—especially when all the other varieties can hurt just as badly. What do you guys think of heartbreaks? How did you go through it?
Book of Deer top // swapped pinafore // old tights + ribbon // MKS shoes (old) // hand-me-down purse // photos by Akita (again)
For me, for example, heartbreak is a daily occurrence. Every morning I wake up and find that I'm so far away from him, it reminds me of reality time and time again. It reminds me of the distance between us—not just in length, but also in time and money. Every time I think of what I'd rather be doing right now or where I'd rather be, I think of an alternate universe where I didn't make the decision I did, no matter how much happier it made me. I think of an entirely different world where I could've been happy with the situation that I had, although I knew that I left it for a reason. But I also think a heart has got to break now and then to know how to be whole. I think what doesn't kill you does make you stronger, even if you have to drag yourself to be so. My heart has broken one too many times, but I think I wouldn't be able to stand where I do now or be who I am now, had it not gone so much.